winter break

it's been what a week and i am already bored. bored all the time. i went back to school yesterday and it was odd. it felt differently then it was last time i went back. there is this girl that took my spot. she said cute things, she flirts with dylan, she is the new girl in the shop. idk im not mad i knew that it would happen lol it was just odd. anyway idk im just kinda tired of break. i know right it is super weird, i should want to be free and hang out, but no one is calling and its just boring.

Fall Quarter 2007

all my grades are in. Thank you so much for advising me to withdraw from Calc 0.

grades are;
Life on earth ~ A
English comp 101~ B+
Biodiversity Crisis~ A
Human sex~ A
Calculus 0~ W

and that makes my GPA........ 3.75
wow that makes me feel fantastic

good luck

i dont want you to go away, but if it is what you want then i wish you the best of luck. and it is bittersweet saying i wish you luck cause the selfish side of me is screaming at me for saying it, but the side of me that wants the best for you is way stronger and is dying for your smile and your hug.
Im not sure i understand but i know that tomorrow is way important, you are one of the smartest people i know so i know youll do great.

Fall Quarter

i'm finished. i just emailed my professor the term paper that has been keeping me up all night for the past few days. im so so glad that it is break. sighhhhh my headache is even starting to go away!
anyway um hope all is going well for you on this terrific Thursdays!

but i could

i know i dont see you much now but the fact that you are here and i could see you adds some kinda comfort. so yeah i guess you leaving does make me a wee bit uneasy.

meet new people?

Meeting new people..... sounds scary to me.
i mean how do you go about meeting someone? here at UC quarters are 11 weeks long. in a time span of 11 weeks in classes 3 times a week 50 min each i am supposed to meet someone and be their friend. i should feel good enough about the new "relationship" to tell them to contact me??
lets think 11*3*50= 27 and 1/2 hours.
i personally also miss some classes and some classes are canceled so really it is less then that.
so how do you meet people? i dont want to be a creep that meets online (thats just scary), and honestly im pretty shy.

no say when you are stuck in a hole

people say things sometimes like "well, be with him" but really do we have any say in those issues? i say no. i have no control over how you feel and i honestly have very little over what i feel. I always feel something that you do not and i have no say in what happens next. guys want a girl to show interest but when a girl is interested and they guy only pretends to be how in the world should the girl know? how in the world would the girl know the guy doesnt want something, the girl just digs her self in to a hole and then when the guy tells her he love to flirt but thats all it is the girl is stuck in the hole.... alone...... and hurt that there is no one to help her out..... but even more so hurt that there is no one else in the hole with her. no one willing to be in the hole, willing to spend time with her and give her a shot at being more then the flirt.